Jason Merrells has still not watched any of his Emmerdale scenes - despite joining the soap three years ago.
Millions of Emmerdale fans are set to see his character Declan Macey cheat on wife Katie (Sammy Winward) with old flame Charity Dingle (Emma Atkins).
But Jason told The Sun: "I don't watch myself at all - I can't watch. I literally walk out of the room and go and make a cup of tea. I haven't seen one episode that I've been in for three years, I can't bear it.
"I enjoy acting and the feeling that I've nailed it after a scene, but then I watch it and it's never what I think it was.
"It's the way I act, the way I sound, the way I look - it's everything. I find it really painful and I can't look at it objectively.
"Luckily my girlfriend watches it, so she tells me what's happening with me!"
But the former Cutting It actor, 44, didn't find the kiss scenes embarrassing to film.
He said: "I've been in the business quite a while now and I've kissed a lot of ladies as part of my job and most of the time it's pretty technical."
